Where All The Scapegoats Gather Around The Water Cooler

 direct manifestation of childhood dynamics waaayyy beyond my control...?

I spend time on here, reading articles, websites, whathaveyou, and I am always strangely comforted by  the comment section. If you are reading this, you know what I mean. Where all of the scapegoats gather round the proverbial water cooler. God, the stories are heart wrenching!  I am not even at the point where I can say "I have begun healing".  I am in the shellshock stage, where I am just coming to grips with whatthefuck has traing  to find answers, or at least something I could grab onto, and say, yep! t all terms as many of us are~depression, anxiety and , quite actually, I will throw in the VERY FIRST diagnosis I ever received from a doctor, and that was PoAlong the way, in the 1990s until 2010, I have steadily been in therapy with the diagnosis of depression and anxiety and ADD (because I have issues with focusing, getting  things done..) and am nicely medicated, thankyouverymuch.

THAT SAID, the one back in 1984 GOT IT RIGHT, I believe. Because PTSD is depressionanxietyADD and a bag  ust that the tail was wagging the dog, you know? The doc spent time with me I coughed that up at one of our sessions, so that  helped, I  guess. But, like I said, tail wagging the motherf****g dog. .. who would have guessed the right, but what is  really a mindf*** is this-if only the incest was my albatross, cuz y'all ...it is f****g 2015HERE FINALLY NAILED IT!  SOMEONE ATE THEIR GOD***N WHEATIES BEFORE LISTENING TO ALL THEIR  CLIENTS AND SOMEONE FINALLY CONNECTED THE MOTHERF****G DOTS.  GAME OVER. IT IS DONE. SOMEONE GOT IT RIit? This, to me, is the AIDS/HIV of psychiatry...nothing short of revolutionary and should change the WHOLE GOD*** FIELD OF PSYCHOLOGY.  And we were here, right?  Like freaking Dallas Buyers Club, THAT GUY. THAT'S US!  Me and you.  Here at ground zero, trying to muddle our way through the trenches.  I say